AzNAn9eLpRiNcEs said i was scary. me! harmless, luvable, gay, affectionate jamie. i wonder whether she is just a terrible judge of character or that her previous experiences have just left her that finicky … it makes me wanna question everything i believe in, and thelife that i have built for myself based on love, affection, openness, and care. she made me question who i am … and that pissed me off. so i gave her a piece of my mind and she said that i have to learn to accept the results of “putting myself out there.” makes me wanna give up and join the ranks of slobs, ghetto thugs, joe six-packs, and macho men out there … almost. normally no one but people really close to me like jadedstaccato can so violently stir my little world … i wonder what that means?

the memorial day weekend was bulging in good fun. my second big house party was on friday and i would say it was a success. eeveryone seemed to have fun in general, although it was winding down at about 3 am. the next day i went to ocean city, md with my pixie. despite getting kicked out of the beach house, it was fun. sunday was host to another transit extravaganza with loads of hot sweating bodies undulating with chinese rave … the night was capped off by a quiet dinner with dave for his birthday.

babaguo was awfully sick today, he may be in trouble …