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Thus far

Here is a cg pic of my lisa! I realize there are no eyelids. Please ignore this fact.

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I take a step back and look at my life thus far.

I see friends long gone and family that have become distant. I see myself as a little boy, lost, lonely, scared, and unsure. I see food on the table and my mother calling me. I see myself changing before everyone’s eyes into someone different. I see myself abandoning those who I didn’t need anymore.

I take a step forward and look at what my life could be.

I see friends long gone, and the nameless faces of relatives. I see myself as a little man: lost, lonely, scared, and unsure. I see food on the table and an empty apartment. I see myself through everyone else’s eyes; I’m not there. I see myself having no one to abandon.

But then, I step next to you and see the rest of my life.

I see life long friends and friendly family that we visit regularly. I see myself as a complete man: confident, full of love, joyous, and sure. I see food on the table and I look across to see you smiling back, our children laugh as they play with their rice. I see myself through your eyes and I want to tear. I see myself with everything and everyone I have always wanted.